Day 8: How old were you when you took your first drink of alcohol, if you ever have? What were the circumstances surrounding that moment?
I was 18 years old that day and taken to a bar called the Brown Derby in Burlington, NC by my college roommate to listen to a band. She bought me a sloe gin fizz, which tasted like a melted raspberry slurpie and I guzzled it. ..which made me get another one. And another one.
I barely remember the night, but I can still taste those sloe gin fizzes. I spent the next two and a half years drinking them like they were going to become extinct and I had to hurry.
I did several things during those years that I would never have done had I been sober.
I flunked out of a college where I had a full-ride music scholarship.
I got a tattoo on my shoulder blade.
I “lost” a car that I still had to pay off for the next three years.
I married a guy I met in a bar because he had a bottle of sloe gin and I was broke.
I was lucky enough to get an annulment before I slept with the guy, who was at least 40 years older than I was at the time.
I crashed a car in the Mississippi River. I don’t remember even driving to the Mississippi River.
I lived in blackouts for three years…I moved in and out of various men’s apartments…I tried to go home and was told to get out and not come back again unless I was sober
I ended up half my original weight, looked ten years older than I was, teeth cracked and falling out and losing my hair, drunk as a skunk on the street when I wandered into an AA meeting. I learned how to get and stay sober.
Hello, my name is Suze…and I am an alcoholic.