Cyranny had a post where she had to state five things she liked about herself…she did it, posted then nominated a few to do the same thing. Sandra of What Sandra Thinks was one of them.
Sandra doesn’t see herself the way others do…a lot of that is due to chronic back pain that debilitates her…some is low self esteem..some is depression. Whatever the reasons, she simply can not like herself and that saddens those of us who have been following her.
She doesn’t see what an intelligent, loving, artistic, incredible person she is.
It hurts us to see her put herself down……we try to tell her how much we love her poetry, her fiction, her posts…HER.
Cyranny thought she could ask a few of us to express in an interview style how we think of Sandra, and maybe (please lord if there is one let her see and believe) what an incredible person she really is.
She has an incredible blog. She’s had over 77000 (yes, thousand) people check her out and seems to have a bazillion followers……none of that helps though.
I want so badly to force her to see what WE see……..her inner beauty, her intelligence, her love of family…her STRENGTH!
I just can’t do the interview thing. I tried…I wrote a sort of post and asked Cyranny if it was what she had in mind..and she liked it. BUT, It wasn’t as truthful as I wanted it to be, and for that I have to be totally me and just babble.
Sandra: I understand about pain…I’ve been living with two ruptured discs for twenty years. There are days where my mood is so bad I just want to beat heck out of every human I meet. I get that you have chronic pain and what it does to you. I understand depression and how sometimes the meds just don’t work the way they should. I know how some days all a person wants is to crawl into bed and die….but we survive. YOU are a survivor. You are strong. You are valuable to all of us who read your words, hopes, dreams, and even your pain.
We all of us want to ease your pain, both physical and emotional. We don’t know how, and we become frustrated…not with YOU but with ourselves in our own stupid inability to fix things. All we can do is keep on following, keep on reading and keep on commenting on how important you are to each of us.
Sandra, I know I have hurt your feelings and I am sorry. I know I have not been able to express to you what a terrific person you are and I am sorry. I know I have attempted and completely failed at making you feel better about things, and I have failed to be encouraging. And for all of that I am most sorry.
For when I think of you as a person, as a mother, an artist, a writer…I wish I could be just HALF of how damned GOOD you are at each of those things.
If you don’t know who Sandra is, go check out her post………here. The beauty shines through.